One Day

"Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body." - Elizabeth Stone

As a mom, the easiest word you can say is yes.  Yes, you can have another cookie.  Yes, you can have a friend over.  Yes, we can go wherever you want.  Yes, I have an extra $20 in my wallet.  No is normally the hard one.  No, you can't stay out all night.  No, you can't have the $80 pair of jeans.  No, we aren't driving 9 hours to see a football game in the dead of winter.  No, you can't have desert before dinner.

So when H came home in April and said that he wanted to apply for the InterAlliance camp internship, my first response was YES.  It's a paying job, he'd get great experience, the campers would love him.  It was a win/win for everyone.  Then he mentioned that two of the weeks would be full weeks - meaning he would be gone for 6 days, home for one, gone for 6 more.  And my heart sank a little.  My inside voice shouted no, but YES popped out of my mouth.

So here we are, the first day of the two weeks and H just called to say good night.  This is why God created teenagers.  So that you get used to them being gone before they actually leave for their own life.  Unfortunately, I don't think it's something that you'll ever get used to.  H and W laugh at my sappy, I'm going to miss you speeches.  But one day they'll understand.